Monday, February 18, 2008
It seem that I can't concentrate anymore, maybe she is affecting me more than I should affect her or in this case the power of our influence. Maybe her influence in me is getting stronger and stronger that at times I'm actually copying her behavior. Yes, I'm starting to notice that and I need immediate actions if I'm really determine to graduating on time. There are so many things that I need to do but I have so little time left. Not to mention the fact that every time I try to do somethng I end up doing something else. I am so tempted on other things that it seems that I lose the sense of urgency inside of me. At times I am so frustrated in myself because I think I'm loosing control. But I cannot let it happen anymore. I just cannot! i have so many things to do. But at the same time I want to be with her. I don't know. But I guess I have to sacriface right now for our future. The two of us. It can not be help, me wanting to be with her but at the same time I have to make room for myself. If I don't do that I will lose myself and her maybe in the process. I have to be firm from now on. I need to see her less. I know, I'll try to make it up to her some way but for the time being, I guess I need to do what needs to be done.